It as at this point that i'm pretty confident that most of my band is ticked at me. Definitely blew the loading gear mission as i was caught up in hanging out, then realized too late "fuck, we should be loading gear tonite".

I'm an idiot. Each member of spincycle can feel free to chastize me about it all the way to pei.

So, appologies to dale for ringing the bell to get in a bunch of times. I didn't notice that everyone left because...i was tooooooo drunk.

And i got this big bruse on my leg, and have no idea what i did to get it.

And i don't remember the walk home, but that's more par for the course.

Slippery slope, kids. Slippery slope.

well, just gave my headset and passes to my "sales lead" at minacs. Seemed pretty good about the whole thing, so that's good. Though, i'll probubly not use him as a reference. I think the ones from job that i had for six years should suffice.

Anyway, just getting some food, then heading to dale's to go over some stuff. Those of you not in the know, we (spincycle) have a show at One World on friday with Dogday! We haven't played an all ages show in a loooong time, so i'm pretty excited! Also have a show on the 29th in pei if all goes well.

It's nice to play shows again!

Reasons why I quit at the call centre:

1. The quota. It's a customer service line. People either call to return stuff or to yell at you. Yet i'm expected to sell stuff and meet a monthly quota. Yeah...some people can and are good at this. I'm not one of them.

2. My scheduale change, part one. For september i'd be working from 7 pm til 3:30 am. Not really desireable, especially when our jam spot is only available between 6 pm and midnight. And for the obvious reason that it's really late.

3. My scheduale change, part two. Left work wednesday with my scheduale the next day being 9:30 til 6. Show up at work on thursday with it being 9:30 til 7:30. Sure, its just an extra hour and a half, but the fact that they can arbitrarily do this is a bit disconcerning.

4. Just seems like the right thing to do. Just like with canadian tire, i'm going with my gut on this one.

I had talked to Dale briefly about this on wednesday, and he tried pretty hard to convince me to stay on until i absolutely couldn't stand it anymore. And yeah, that does make sense, but...i donno, when have i ever done anything that made sense?

And remember, i still have my profit sharing to keep me going for quite a while if the search for work is a long one. Talked to my manager at CT to let him know i was putting my resume back out there. He wanted to know if i would work through the back to school rush (3 weeks) ( ). I told him i'd think about it. I mean, it would be three weeks of pay and then i'd be out of there again, but then there's always the temptation of falling back in again.

I suppose we can file this under being a learning experiance?

Just got back from my brother's place. My parents came down so as to celebrate my dad's birthday. He turned 80 years old on thursday. I hope i'm nearly as sharp at that age, assuming i make it to that age. Mind you, i never thought i would make it to thirty.

Ma said i look better than the last time she saw me. Less tired. And i do feel alot better. In the last few weeks i've been feeling more at peace with myself than i have in a long time. I'd have to say quitting my job certainly didn't hurt things, but i've also been working on changing my perspective on life. Still a work in progress, that's for sure, but at least i'm getting the feeling that i'm on the right path.

Anyway, tonite i'm off on one of those missions that i take on those saturday nites in halifax when a bunch of great bands are playing at a bunch of different bars:

The Three Bar Nite.

Kids, nothing good can come from this!

So, would it be entirely foolish of me to quit this job?

I mean, it's not like i really hate this job. At least not yet anyway. But i found myself getting a bit stir crazy just sitting there. And it didn't help that, since i was there early, i got a window seat. Wow, did it ever look nice out today! All i could think about is how nice it would be to lay down under a tree in the middle of the commons reading a book.

One of the things that i kept thinking about is "Is this what i want to do?". Which is pretty unfair to ask of any job that is used essentually to pay the bills. No, i definitely don't see a career in it, but then again I don't see a career in anything right now. The only thing i really enjoy is writing songs and playing music, but i really don't see that as a viable career option.

Or maybe my problem IS my inability to see it as a viable career option.

I donno...today was my official first day out of training on the job. Maybe i'll feel diferently about it tomorrow.

Or maybe i'll lay down under a tree in the middle of the commons reading a book.

Giant.
Musical.
Charlie Brown.
Pez Dispensor.

Fuck yeah!

I woke up with peanut butter all over my shirt.
Upon further investigation, it woud appear that, well, i really shouldn't be allowed to make toast and peanut butter while drunk.
Don't remember it at all.

So, ahh...carry on with the rest of your day, i guess....

Two words:profit sharing

These two words have changed my economic situation drastically.
My weekend begins at 1 am saturday morning. Let's have fun.

The city seemed quiet and calm tonite as i made my way home from work. Or maybe i'm just imposing my own feeling onto the city, i don't know. But I think i might take a walk down to Needs to grab some chips, just to be in it a little longer.

'nite kids!

5pm til 1am.
Sigh.